I couldn't sleep last night. I kept waking up to loud horrible noises outside my room. Like the sound of metal tearing in half. It was errie. I took two naps today.

I have not been able to connect with anyone since i broke up with my ex boyfriend. The thought of living the entire summer without a connection superficial or not crossed my mind earlier today. Perhaps its because of my defeated crushes...two that i've had since my 19 month relationship ended. First one turned out to be taken. And the second just seems uninterested or unable to express himself, either way, nothing has come about them. Perhaps a friendship or aquaintanceship. But that thought earlier today left me with this panic. Illogical, i know, but sweat and mind racing occured, though only for a minute or two. I should focus on other things. I've still got beer and summer air to keep me content.